Mulling Over and New Developments

I've been thinking a lot lately about what makes me, me. I mean, how do we know if we are who we're supposed to be? Is there a way to tell? Or is it just luck of the draw?

I feel like I've changed over the course of college. I'm not sure if I like it and I'm not 100% sure I know how to change it. I worry that I've lost the super caring, giving, self-evaluating person I thought I used to be. I fear that I've fallen into a selfish, lesser being of what I used to be. I feel like I used to be someone truly different. I looked at the world with open eyes and tried to analyze and consider all sides of the story. Now, I feel like I accept personal opinion more as fact than opinion and it worries me that I'm not as centered as I once thought I was. Am I crazy? Delusional? On the right track?
With all this craziness and change going on in my life, I'm afraid that I'm going to loose myself. Is there a way to Super Glue the parts of my personality that I like and let all the other stuff go? Is there a way for me to figure out what I've lost? Enough time to regain it? Have I really lost any of it? I never thought that anything could change me, but the more I think about it, the more I see all the changes that college has made in me. I think that being around other people my age that feel entitlement, I've started to feel some entitlement about a few things. From this, I think a bit of narcissism has developed. DEFINITELY NOT what I want for myself! In a way, I'm kind of surprised that I allowed myself to get this way, but I'm kind of hoping that it's not as bad as it feels.
On the positive side, I've found someone who makes me feel special and beautiful. He makes me smile everyday and surprises me with his kindness and gentle nature. He's honest and trustworthy. Basically, someone who I always hoped to meet, but was never 100% sure I'd find. He renews my faith in the opposite sex everyday and really makes me want to be the best person I can possibly be, which is probably why I've been thinking so much about how/if I've changed and whether or not I like it. He makes me nervous, but only because I'm afraid that someday I'll wake up and he'll be like every other guy I've ever dated. A psycho, Graduate-wannabe, un-trusting, waste of space from hell. (Can you tell that I've been unlucky in love? Oh yeah! You've probably read a few of my other posts. Haha) I just want to keep making sure that he's sincere and that I'm not going to give my heart away to yet another freak-not-on-a-leash.
I guess I wouldn't be doing all this worrying if I didn't care about the guy. I just hope that it doesn't come off as being distant and/or uninterested. I try to tell him how I feel, but I just don't want to say something too soon and go down the same road I've gone down every time before this.

Say an extra prayer for my crazy ass soul. I need it..just like everyone else.

Moni